we are three!! (musings of a ‘newborn’ dad):
My mornings are never the same anymore. They are filled with reluctance to go for work, just like I used to feel while going to school on rainy monsoons in my childhood. My days are not the same anymore, they are filled with curiosity to hear the voice of my little girl back home. My evenings are never the same anymore, they are filled with excitement to come home and embrace my sweetheart. My nights are never the same anymore, they are filled with compassion and sweetness of evergreen lullabies.
I still remember those days she was inside her mom. The nights we spent in small talks, reading fables and stories, and humming lullabies, were augmenting the sweetness of anticipation. Those enthralling moments were getting assembled inside us for many days and months. Even though we were eagerly waiting outside the “safest place” in the earth, we took some time to realize those moments of joy during her much awaited birth.
Like every parents, we enjoy the competitions to prove her similarities with mom, dad and grands. It’s a chapter treasured by every parents going through this phase, we realize.
Being away from our loved ones, over and above the online tips from grands, the advancement of technology has helped us much to gain confidence in proud parenting. Great YouTube videos of baby bath and massage, Google search results of pregnancy hiccups and remedies, so on and so forth. During the moments of ignorance and confusions, the natural motherly instincts of her courageous and adventurous mom scaled up to ensure that things are in control. Never in our lifetime we had imagined that we will be able to manage these days of stress and strain yet curiosity and excitement, with limited support system. We did experience the Almighty’s invisible hands in those moments of loneliness and rush of mixed emotions.
Life has been substantially changed after chilanka’s arrival. Sometimes I need to pinch myself to wake up from the dream and realize that a newborn has been arrived home. At home, I never realize whether its a day or night, rain or sun outside. Pretty quickly, life has been encapsulated to a little girl who makes me proud as a “dad”, thrilled as a “father” and responsible as a “parent”.
I hear the lines of a sweet lullaby from the other side of the wall from an affectionate mom. I quickly realized, we are not TWO now. We are THREE!!